I woke up every day and wondered, in the back of my mind, if that would be the day he would call.
Here goes. Things are about to get really honest, personal and intense. I’ll begin by saying that myrecently. And although and he isn’t here to speak up , this story is all mine. I’m not writing about this to hurt anyone’s feelings. I’m writing about this because parents die and when they do, it’s extremely hard. But what aboutalready had two kids
I was supposed to spend every other weekend at my dad’s, but somewhere along the way, things went wrong. When I’d go, I’d want to stay down the road with my Granny and Papa instead. Or I’d stay with my favorite aunt and her three girls , who lived a couple exits south. Although my dad worked a lot, I remember learning how to shoot a BB gun and swing on a rope across the ravine — but mostly I remember him drinking too much. And giving the dog beer in his bowl rather than water.
I can still see my sister asking me to go inside and close the door. She let him have it right there on her front porch. Years went by and he didn’t contact me. My kids were born and there wasn’t so much as a “yay you” spoken to me. I occasionally felt a wave of guilt and would call or invite him to my girls’ birthdays. He usually wouldn’t come; in fact, he only came to two, but when he did, it was strained. He’d spend his time talking about his wife’s kids and his other grandkids. He once told me that he wanted me to bring my girls down to see him because at his house he had a rope and a lake to throw them in.
At this point in my life, I have really weird emotions coming at me. For one, a relationship that tanked. And now a father who is still not here, but I no longer have to wonder if today will be the day he decides he swallows his pride and wants to see his grandkids. Because he decided years ago that he didn’t want to do that.
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